Unlimited Potential
हम अपने भाग्य के निर्माता हैं,जो कार्य हमारे सामने हैं ,वह हमारी शक्ति से परे नही हैं तथा इसको पूरा करने के लिए जो कष्ट सहना पडेंगा,वह भी हमारी सहन शक्ति से अधिक नही हैं और जब तक हमे अपने जीवन प्रयोजन और जीतने की अजेय इच्छाशक्ति पर विश्वास हैं,कोई भी सफलता हमसे अधिक दूर नही रह सकती |{ winston churchill}
13 June 2023
25 February 2023
टर्निंग प्वाइंट
टर्निंग प्वाइंट
(लघुकथा)
"सर बहुत संघर्षों के बाद आप यहां तक पहुंचे हैं"इंटरव्यू का पहला सवाल मैंने पूछा,इंजीनियर साहब से।
इंजीनियर दत्ता ने गहरी सांस लिया और बोलें"बीस साल पहले में भैंस चराया करता था,कक्षा 10 में था ,तभी मेरे एक आईपीएस रिश्तेदार गांव आए थे ,लौट रहें थे, मैं पगडंडी पर अपनी भैंसे लेकर आ रहा था,उन्होंने नीली बत्ती वाली एंबेसडर कार की खिड़की से सिर निकाल कर पूछा "पढ़ोंगे"...
.मैंने कहा "बहुत ".
फिर उन्होंने कहा चलो ......बस्ता बांधो,
हालांकि मेरे पिता जी गरीब किसान थे,वे शहर पढ़ने नहीं भेज सकते थे,लेकिन उस देवात्मा ने हमे थोड़ा सपोर्ट(आर्थिक मदद/पुस्तके वा फीस जमा) कर दिया , मेरी अच्छी नींव बना दी,जिस पर आज मैं बढ़ा हूं....बाद में मैं ट्यूशन पढ़ाकर आगे बढ़ा ।उनकी की गई मदद मेरे जीवन का सबसे टर्निंग प्वाइंट साबित हुई।आज उनकी वजह से मेरा और मेरे परिवार का जीवन स्तर ,शिक्षा,आर्थिक स्थिति सब वो हैं,जो हम सोच नही सकते थे । उन्होंने सैकड़ों के जीवन को बदला हैं, पारस मणि हैं वें,भगवान सरीखे हैं मेरे लिए।
इंजीनियर दत्ता कहते कहते भावुक हों रहें थे, मैंने उन्हें पानी का ग्लास पकड़ाया।
मैं सोचने लगा ...काश हर ऊंचे ओहदे(सक्षम) का व्यक्ति,किसी संघर्षशील पथिक को इतना किक(मदद) दे दे की उसकी जिंदगी में बदलाव आ जाएं,तो दुनिया और खूबसूरत हो जायेंगी।
डॉक्टर अजय यादव
25 December 2022
26 February 2022
MIND RUBRICS :PART 3
72. Ennui B
Meanings
:- ennui (n): boredom, feeling of having enough of a thing or reaching a point
of satiety. Interpretation :- it is mostly attributed to ones present living
conditions or state of affairs.  
Versions :- (1) "I seem to be so used to
the present atmosphere that I don't feel like living in it anymore.  The
four walls of my house seem to be eating me. I am waiting for the day when I
shall have some  relief to be able to move to some new place." 
(2) "in the beginning I had a lot of
interest in taking that treatment regularly but of late I feel I have 
reached the point of satiety with it. I am looking for the day when it will end
although I am much better  than before." 
73.
Ennui, entertainment, amel B 
Meanings :- entertainment (n):
something that diverts the mind or holds the attention agreeably. It may 
be in the form of hospitality by anyone, or musical performance, etc. 
ameliorates : (v):
makes better or improves. 
Versions :- "to remain sick even for a
day is a matter of great boredom for me, of course if I have  something to
divert my mind and hold my attention agreeably then I may not mind."
"Either someone may engage me in some sort of interesting conversation or
try to entertain me as a  guest or did some sort of performance like
music, etc., etc." 
74. Envy A 
Meanings :- Envy (v): desire for an advantage possessed
by another. 
Interpretation :- The object of envious
feeling is grudging or grief at the sight of other's success. But  not in
the sense of hatred towards them. It is in the sense that if others can possess
something why can't  he? It is in a spirit of competitiveness, or a race
for gain, to excel other without entertaining the idea of  harming or destroying
other's possessions. 
Versions :- "when I see people enjoying
around me, it comes to my mind that will there be a day in my  life also
when I shall have a smile on my face and will be able to eat, drink and be
merry as they are doing." 
75. Jealousy B 
Meanings :- Jealousy (n): uneasiness at the success or
position of others or suspiciousness or rivalry or 
faithlessness in love or business affairs. 
Interpretation :- jealousy is just opposite
to envy. It is double edged. Neither he can tolerate others  possessing
something which he does not possess nor he can tolerate others having the same
thing which  he possesses. He will remain busy busy in suspecting otherers
of robbing him of his possessions. He  may take to offense in protecting
his possessions. 
Versions:- "When I see people laughing
it comes to my mind that I should snatch from them their joy. If  cannot
enjoy why should they." 
76. Excitement, amel A 
meanings :- excitement (n): an excited state. 
Interpretation :- something that which excites
or agitates emotions by arousing feelings, ameliorates  sufferings. 
Versions :- "something which warms the
mind and give it life, acts as a soother to me. I do not like  dullness.
It is the company of live people which I feel can keep me happy ." 
77. Exhilaration can recall things long
forgotten. A 
Meanings:- Exhilaration (n): exhilaration is a state of
joyousness or inner feeling of pleasantness. 
Interpretation:- "Many times I sit and
recall the memories of good old days and enjoy at the thought of  them but
become unhappy when I think that perhaps those days will never come again.
While  comparing the present with the past it comes to my mind that I was
not like this as I am today but used  to be a happy and jolly
person." 
78. Fear, betrayed of being AA 
Meanings:- Fear (n): A sort of discomfort
aroused by an impending pain, danger or evil which is  specific in nature
. A person can identify the subject of his fear. 
 Betrayed (v): Deceived. 
Interpretation:- Fear of being deceived by persoms, situations
and or events. 
Versions:- "Doctor, if you do not mind , I shall
like to know, whether you have treated an identical case  (to that of
mine) in the past." 
"
Frankly speaking as you suggest that for every type of ailment as for example ,
sleeping , I shall have  to abandon allopathic medicine and depend on
yours. I am worried , if in case your medicine do not  work, what will be
my lot. Because the disease is somewhat under control now. Lest I be deprived
of  what I already have." 
79. Fear extravagance of AA 
Meanings:- Extravagance (n): Excess in any matter.
Interpretation:- That part of the spendings
which an individual feelsis in excess of what in his  estimation is the
right limit. Each individual has his own measurement of the excess. One person
may  like to pay not more than Rupees ten for a thing and a paisa more may
be treated by him as exceeding  his limit but another may not mind paying
Rs. 15/- even for the same. But both of them will be scared to cross the limits
they have in their minds. 
Versions:- " Doctor, previously you were
never taking so much time. So much so that very serious  ailments were
treated by you within a short time. Now for this minor trouble you are taking
too much  time." 
80. Fear, injured, of being A 
Interpretation:- We have already studied the
rubric Delusions injured is being. In delusion it is the  sensation about
the injury being received (in present) and in fear it is about the injury one
may get in the  future. 
Versions:- "I can bear pains , remain
without treatment but not the prick of the needle. I am so afraid of 
infections, surgical, of the possibility of irreparable damage." 
81. Fear, self - control losing B  
meaning :- self control (n): hold over ones physical and
mental functions. 
 Losing (v): Of being deprived of. 
Interpretation :- fears that in a particular
situation in may be deprived of control over his physical and  mental
functions and thus the situation may go out of his hands. 
Versions :- (1) "before going out, I am
reminded of urinating because of the fear if in case I feel the  urge
somewhere at such a place during my journey as do not provide the facility for
it. It is possible  that I may not be able to keep control over myself and
the urine passes involuntarily in the trousers."  (2) "I know,
that I am fully equipped with the knowledge about my profession and
subject  
but what I fear is whether during the interview
I shall be able to keep control over my memory and  intelligence and
perform properly as I feel I can and I should." 
82. Fear, society of his position in C 
Meanings :- society (n): an organized group
of persons coming together for a particular purpose.  Position (n) place
of a person at a given moment. 
Interpretation :- it is one's own good image
for place already earned or to be earned in future in the society which keeps
him scared of doing something which may affect his fame. 
Versions :- "What actually I fear is
that if a female child is borne to us, the people will treat us "as
poor  unfortunate persons". It is this impression about us which
frightens me and I want to avoid it.  Therefore please do something if it
is possible that we have a male child." 
83. Fear, sufferings of A 
Meanings :- suffering (n): state of taking stain or
tolerating stain.
Interpretation :- it is the state of undergoing the
strain or nerves that one fears. 
Versions :- "I do not mind how lengthy
may the treatment be but it should be without any trouble and 
inconvenience." 
"Do you mean pains?" sir,
"don't talk of pains that is too heavy a term to be used for my fear. I
will say  that just coming to your clinic frequently to collect medicine
too seems to be troublesome to me. I do  not think that I shall able to
accommodate to that extent even." 
84. Fear, superstitious A 
Meanings :- Superstitious (adj): any belief having no
logical background. 
Interpretation :- For example, a person has
been getting an attack of a particular disease for the last few  years, in
a particular month of the year that's why he is fearing that certainly he will
get the attack this  year also. No argument, no reasoning is sufficient to
rid him of this idea which is troubling him. 
Versions :- "I have noticed that
regularly on two three occasions in the past my pains come on Monday. 
Therefore a day or two before the coming of every Monday I start fearing that
the pains will come.  And it so happens that actually they come."
Although he laughed but with a concern and tried to stress  " sir do
not take me lightly. I shall request you to do something for me." 
85. Fear, troubles of imaginary. C 
Meanings :- Imaginary (adj): Existing in imagination, not
real. 
 Troubles (n): difficulties. 
Interpretation :- can not be convinced that
his problems are not real because according to him they are  just before
his nacked eyes. 
Versions :- (1) "I imagine in that for
this disease people will start hating me." For this reason "I fear
to  disclose it to anyone". 
 (2) " there is a hole in the sole
of my left foot but nobody believes me. They say they do  not see it. I am
afraid, in such a situation as this, nobody will be convinced to treat me
Medically." 
86.
Fear, unaccountable A 
Meanings :- unaccountable (adj): having no
reasonable explanation or accounts. 
Interpretation :- which is without any
meaning. He knows that his fear is meaningless yet is not able to 
overcome it. 
Versions :- "What to tell you sir, about
my fear. I know it is called unnecessary and without any head  and
tail." 
"If I get a news about someone's death I
start feeling about myself that perhaps my death is also near and that I shall
die soon. I shall feel scared to join a funeral party. Although I try to tell
myself that 
nothing
like that is going to happen, but I do not succeed in overcoming my fear."
87.
Feigning, sick AA  
Meanings :- Feigning (v): Assuming an appearance
of sickness. To represent fictitiously one's own  condition of
health. 
Interpretation :- this is the literal meaning
of Feigning sick. But actually in practice it is not necessary  that the
person may put on totally a false appearance of sickness. It is possible that
he is really sick but  wants to make it appear in an exaggerated way so
that those around him must know that he is really sick  and give him their
due attention. And part that purpose he will employ such behaviour as is necessary
to serve his aim because in reality he wants attention. 
Versions :- "you know, that these days
the near ones have no time to pay attention to a sick person in the house. So
sometimes through different types of gesture I have to make it known that I am
not well.  At occasions I have to represent my sickness in an exaggerated
way in order to get their assistance and  attention to that exten I
need." 
88. Frivolous AA 
Meanings :- Frivolous (adj): not worth to serious
notice. 
 Characterized by lack of seriousness.Unserious. 
Interpretation: -taking things easily. Do not
become that serious as usually people do in similar  situation as he is
in. 
Versions :- "I am not much bothered
about my sickness. Because I do not feel that it is of any  significance.
It is my husband who has generally been admonishing me for this. Because in his
view I am a careless person so for my health is concerned. It is at his
insistence that I have come to you for the  treatment. I think it will
heal by itself." 
89. Groping, as if in the dark A 
Meanings :-Groping (adj): searching something as if
blind.  
Interpretation :- trying to find a way out of
the present crisis but is not successful and is looking for the 
direction. 
Versions :- "apparently I do not find
any relief. I am at a loss to understand as to what to do in this 
condition. Neither I am able to assess whether or not I am recovering in any
way nor I am able to  decide to whom else to approach for a fresh
opinion." 
90. Helplessness, feeling A 
Meanings :- helplessness (n): state of
inability to help oneself in the given circumstances.  Feeling (n):
perceiving by touch. 
Interpretation :- arriving at the conclusion after coming
into contact with the circumstances that no 
other way out is left but to accept just the one which is
available. There is no choice. 
Versions :- "because of my sickness I
have to neglect most of the house-hold. I know everything is in disorder. The
maid servent does not work according to my satisfaction. Had I been in good
health I  would have terminated her services." 
91. Honour, effects of wounded. 
Versions :- honour (n): honesty and integrity
in one's beliefs & actions; high public esteem, fame, glory  ; a
source of credit or distinction; high respect as for worth merit or rank. 
 Effects (n): results, consequences. 
 Wounded (adj): damaged. 
Interpretation :- in the state of undergoing
the impact of results of damaged repetition, fame, glory, high 
respect. 
Versions :- "because of bad deeds of my
son, I cannot show my face to the people and remain indoors  to avoid
meeting anyone. " 
92.
Hide, desires C 
Meanings :- hide (v): to prevent from being
seen. 
 Desires (v): wants to. 
Versions :- "I feel I am going to have fever. I want
to avoid it if possible." 
93. Escape, attempts to . A 
Meanings :- escape (v): to slip away 
 attempts (v): make an effort. 
Interpretation :- for the sake of comperative
study it will be found that one will try to escape from a  situation or a
person which is just before him face-to-face. And tries to find out ways how to
save  himself from it. But one can hide himself from something which has
not yet appeared before him and  he remains unnoticed, because the scope
of hiding vanishes when one comes to the notice. 
Versions :- "I tried to avoid onset of
the fever but could not. Now since it has come I am finding ways  to get
rid of it." 
94. Hides, things AA 
 (cross reference): nacked wants to be 
Meanings :- hides (v): prevents from being seen 
 things (n): objects without life. 
Interpretation :- hides things, facts, deeds,
affairs, actions, intentions etc. not always but on isolated  occasions
when found necessary that too not with all seriousness but in a joking mood or
out of  shyness. Uncovers things as soon as the shyness is over and
seriousness returns.
Versions :- "I generally do not try to
hide things from anyone. I am a very open book." "But sometimes a
situation may demand that you have to put a cover on a particular issue. Yet I
will not able to do it for  too long a period. Because if I find that to
prolong hiding will mean telling a lie I will uncover the  hidden fact
promptly. For example, let me tell you about these black spots on the left side
of my face. .  whenever I will meet a stranger I shall cover them with my
hand but if the same person meets me  frequently I shall stop covering
them." 
95. Secretive (cross reference) B 
Meanings :- Secretive (adj): one who does,
makes or conducts without the knowledge of others, as a  matter of his
nature or habit. 
Versions :- "please don't disclose it to
anyone that I am under your treatment. I shall like to keep it to 
myself." 
96. Hopeful B 
Meanings :- hopeful (adj): full of hope. 
Interpretation :- who feels that the events
may turn out for the best. Assured in the mind at the  happening will be
favourable. Fully confident of getting desired results. 
Versions
:- "mind mind assures me that I self recovery. It is my internal
feeling." 
97.
Impatience, pain from A 
Meanings :- Impatience (n): state of
inability to endure or wait because of pain or eager desire, for 
relief. 
 From (prep) :
indicates the source, agent or instrument of impatience. Interpretation :- Not
in a state to bear pains and therefore is not possible for him to wait any
longer. 
Versions: (1) "I cannot bear pains. This
is my weakness and therefore cannot wait even for moment. If  I find that
medicine is taking time to overcome the pain, I shall change the treatment at
once." 
 (2) tosses his head & produces
sound oh! & says, " I am not able to bear the pain. Please do 
something quickly." 
98.
Inciting, others. B 
Meanings :- Inciting (v): prompting to
action. 
Interpretation :- prompting others to action and keeping
himself behind and quiet. 
Versions :- "you might have treated many
people successful but I will accept your skill only after you cure me."
99. Indifference, desire has no, no action of the will.
A 
Meanings :- indifference (n): lack of interest or
concern. 
 Desire (n): craving. 
 Action (n): state of being action. 
 Will (v): the power of his choosing actions. 
Interpretation :- a state of complete lack of
interest in desiring anything and exerting the power of  control over
one's own actions. Lack of initiative. 
Versions :- 
 (1) "On my own, I am never
reminded of any work. If somebody tells me to do something  I will do it.
Otherwise I will sit idle and do nothing.Seldom when I feel like doing anything
I have to  seek someone's advice whether or not to carry it
out." 
 (2) A mother tells about her child that
he bothers her very much. He will not do anything  on his own initiative
so much so that he will come to her and ask "should I go to obey the call
of  nature" or should I eat this or should I take that etc,
etc. 
100. Indifference,
important, things to B 
Meanings :- important (adj):Of significance. 
Interpretation :- lack of concern for things
of much significance which ordinarily one is not expected to  lose
interest in. 
Versions :- "It is a strange contrast in
my nature that I remain quite disinterested about important  matters of my
business and other affairs and because of this I have to suffer and miss many
good  opportunities for further progress." 
101. Indifference, lies with eyes closed B 
Meanings:- Eyes (n) closed: Disallowing oneself to
see. 
 Lies (v): remaining in a state of inactivity. 
Interpretation :- remains in a state of no
concern as if eyes are closed to whatever goes on around and  have become
inactive . 
Versions :- "I know that I am suffering
from a serious disease which if neglected may prove fatal, yet my attention is
never drawn towards it and I never think of going to a doctor. As if not aware
of it and  inclined to take any action." 
102. Indifference, personal appearance, to B
Meanings :- personal (adj): one's own. 
Interpretation :- lake of interest in one's
own, outward show, in dressing, maintaining public impression  of decorum,
prosperity, etc. 
Versions :- "I do not feel any interest
in dressing myself properly and keep my personal appearance in order. Because I
am never convinced that my appearance which in the view of others is bad is
really  not good." 
103. Indifference, recovery about his B 
Meanings :- recovery (n): regaining of something
lost. 
 About (prep): concerning. 
Interpretation :- not bothering about
regaining the health lost but is interested only in mitigating his 
sufferings. 
Versions :- "I am not much interested in
the eradication of my disease. What I am bothered most is  about the
suffering and pain. I want to get rid of them first. About recovery I will
think later." 
104. Indifference, sufferings to A 
Interpretation :- feeling of no concern so
far one's sufferings are concerned as if nothing is happening to 
him. 
Versions :- "ailments may be of any
dimension (strength), we have never seen him showing any  concern about
that. "He keeps himself normal. 
105.Indignation, A 
Meanings
:- indignation (n): feeling caused by what is considered as unworthy of one's
dignity. Interpretation :- the respect, position, status on holds in office or
being elderly in the house, etc. etc. 
Versions: -- "let me tell you doctor
that here at your clinic my position is of as patient. But at my own 
place I command respect being the proprietor of my business. I take myself to
be a man of dignity and if it is denied to me in any way I feel
disrespected." 
 "The same is the case with me when
I am in the family. Being the head, if any of the members tries  to show
disregard to me, I take it ill." 
106. Indignation, discomfort, from a general
AA 
Meanings :- discomfort (n) from general:
state of uncomfortable feeling because of having been  disrespected, although
in a general, way.
Interpretation :- one has not been provided
due reception or the comfortable place of sitting etc. worthy  of his
dignity of which others or not aware. 
Versions :- "with me there is a problem.
For example I have come to your clinic. Here if I find that there is no one to
attend to me properly and offer me a seat but at least receive me with respect
and  requests me to wait till the doctor is free, I will take it as a
disrespect to me and will not wait even for a  moment and leave the
place." 
107. Inquistive A 
Meanings :- Inquistive (adj): one who
searches into or makes efforts to satisfy one's curiosity (having  desire
to learn or know about anything). 
Versions :- 
 1) "Just for information, doctor, if you do
not mind I shall ask you one question. I am sure that  you must have
treated so many cases like that of mine. I wanted to confirm it from
you."  2) "Another question is that which of the other diseases
you treat successfully. It is my habit to  be up-to-date with every type
of information." 
  
108.
Irritability, pain during A A 
Meanings :-Irritability (n): state of
excitability to impatience or anger or annoyance .  pains (n): bodily
sufferings or distress due to injury or illness. 
Interpretation :- in other words, it is the
degree of strain the nerves have to bear. After a limit the stress  of
strain is felt and it starts taking the shape of sufferings. This stress when
aggravated further takes the  shape of pain. 
It is in the state of excessive strain on nerves which
plunges a person into a state of annoyance. 
Versions :- "So long as the pain there I
remain irritated. I shall not like to talk to anyone. As if I am  annoyed
with everyone and everything around me. It is not necessary that the pain
should be in the  body, it may be in the mind. Because if I find something
unjustified it also annoys me and brings the same changes in my attitude as
above." 
109. Lamenting, bemoaning,wailing C 
Meanings :- lamenting (n): expressing bodily
pain (affliction) disappointments, grief, sadness or  regret.etc. 
Interpretation :- the way of expression may
be a prolonged low inarticulate sound uttered as from  physical or mental
suffering or bemoanful high pitched clear sounding as in grief or suffering
which  clearly indicates that the lamenter is trying to convey how deep
and strong is the suffering, by uttering  loudly words like 'dying'
'killed', oh! God' etc.
Versions :- She talks in a mourning tone and expresses
caused by her sickness. She says, "my sickness is badly after me and does
not seem to leave may easily. It has let me down. I am cut off from
society  and everything is except this nasty disease which keeps me busy
with itself all the time
110. Lamenting, sickness about his C 
Interpretation :- while lamenting one tries
to point out how distressing his sickness is. His remarks may  be "this
disease is not going to leave me." In certain cases producing of
peculiar sounds of lamenting  may be missing but a bit abusive language
may be substituting it. 
Versions :- "this nasty disease is with
me since very long. I know it is not going to leave me. That's  why doctor
please give me something just to mitigate my pains or sufferings. Do not think
of curing  my disease." 
111. Laughing, actions, at his own C 
Meanings :- laughing (n): the state of
expressing emotions (as mirth), pleasure, derision or nervousness  with an
audible, vocal expulsion of air from the lungs which can range from loud burst
of sound to  chunkles. 
 Actions (n): doings. 
Interpretation :- to express a causal joy at one's own
doings. 
Versions :- as she started reporting about
her sickness, she was plunged into laughter and said "I am. laughing at
myself because I am reminded that every time I come to you, it is with a fresh
complaint  and obviously I feel you will think what a strange type of
women I am." 
112. Laughing, speaking when B 
Meanings :- speaking (n): communicating orally. 
Interpretation :- laughing while communicating orally,
which shows a happy mood. 
Versions :- it has been observed that while
communicating she laughs spontaneously without being  aware of it. It
looks as if this is the part of her nature. 
113. Light, desire for AA 
Meanings :- light (n): something that makes things
visible or affords illumination. 
Interpretation: -- desire for something with
the help of which one achieve knowledge or remove  darkness about
anything. Here as a patient one should be inclined to know about the nature of
his  disease, whether it is curable or not etc. 
Versions :- "Doctor
please tell me if there is any hope of recovery. If you give me some assurance
I  will start treatment with you. Because I am not a doctor and not
supposed to know whether or not my  disease is curable. So, if you think
you can cure me. I shall accept your version because whatever use a will be
based on your experience in similar cases." 
114. Light, shuns B 
Meanings
:- shuns (v): to keep away from the knowledge about anything (one is scared
of). Interpretation :- He thinks, it is safe to remain in dark. 
Versions :- "I am avoiding all types
of diagnostic investigations in my case because I know if  something is
detected. It in itself will be a cause of great embarrassment to me." 
115. Longing,good opinion of others for
C 
Meanings:- longing (n): prolonged,
unceasing and earnest (serious in all respect) desire.  Opinion (n):
the expression of personal judgment or estimate of a person or thing with 
respect to character or merit etc. 
 good (adj): morally excellent, virtuous and
righteous. 
Interpretation :- A long standing serious
desire to listen words of praise about ones qualities and merits  by
others. 
Versions :- (1) "My gaze went up and
came down. Again went up but never came down. In this verse  a beautiful
damsel talks about her experience. 
 That once all of a sudden her looks
went up to find that someone was looking at her. In the next  moment they
came down in a spontaneous response to something which she longed. (Perhaps,
there  she saw a promise full of praises for her for which she was waiting
as if from centuries. She wanted  this dream to become true. For which she
thought it was necessary to give free chance to her gazer so that he may not
hesitate to take full stock of her beauty)." 
 After doing this she raised her eyes
again never to cast them down but to search for an answer to her  question
into the eyes which were raised at her. 
(2) "outside home I remain happy, why?
There is none even occasionally to glance at me and know  about my
qualities in the house. I am fond of good diseases and lavish make up. I am
good at writing poetry and singing songs. I will definitely like to meet people
who encourage me." 
116. Longing, repose for tranquility AA 
Meanings :-Repose (n):a state in which no emotion can
disturb. 
Interpretation :- Longstanding desire for
rest to achieve that state of calmness of mind which prohibits  the
disturbing emotion to effect it is any way. 
Versions :- "Many times I think of going
away to some holiday resort to take rest from this daily routine  and to
achieve peace of mind but I am not finding time." 
117. Longing, sunshine, light and society for
A 
Meanings :- sunshine (n): The shining of the sun,
the direct light of the sun which contains both, the 
light and the heat. Also if inferred as a
matter of comparison (metaphor) a cheerful face too shines  which is the
sign of happiness i.e.internal warmth & hope. 
Light (n):
something that removes the darkness. To infer gives awareness about self &
surroundings. Society (n): an organized group of persons coming together
for a particular purpose. 
Interpretation :- Long outstanding desire for
happiness and pleasures of life (sunshine) with the full knowledge and
awareness about self while fully enjoying and giving herself to feel that she
is there  deep into the state of joyousness (light) in the company of persons
of her own liking organized for the  particular purpose of enjoying life
to the full (society), without any hitch and hindrance. In a nutshell longing
for pomp and show with full pleasures of life enjoying to one's heart content
in the  company of like minded people, without hitch and
hindrance.  
Versions :- (1) "I want to enjoy life
fully in the society of like-minded people without any type of check  on
me." 
(2) "A marriage party was passing
through our street, when I heard the sound of Band and music, I was 
charmed with the idea of enjoying its look from the roof of my house and
requested my son to take me  out of the room up to the
railings." 
118. Love, sick B 
Meanings :- love (n): A feeling of
warm personal attachment or deep affection for a parent, child, friend  or
a person of opposite sex. 
 Sick (adj): deeply affected with some
unhealthy feeling as from a disease. 
Interpretation: -- Feeling of a warm personal
attachment for someone which has taken over the mind so  deeply that it
has started affecting him like a disease and is not free from it at any time of
the day. 
Versions :- " When in distress, I am
tormented with the fond memory of my mother and want to be by  her side
all the time." 
119. Moral, feeling one of B 
Meanings :- moral (adj): pertaining to or
concerned with right conduct and its principles and  conforming (complying
with) to them. 
Feeling (n): capacity for emotions or
sentiments etc. 
want of (n): lack of. 
Interpretation :- moral feeling want of :
without having any place for sentiments concerning the right conduct, in one's
mind. 
Versions :- " I become so restless that
when I find something not in order I will burst at the person who  is
responsible for it with rudeness and even abusive language. Keeping aside all
moral constrains I will  not spare even my father or who so ever been may
be whom I am obliged to revere." 
120. Nacked, wants to be B
Meanings :- Nacked (adj): without covering. 
Interpretation :- Wishes to uncover himself
physically or (to infer) to divulge the bare facts he knows  about
himself. 
Versions :- see rubric no. - 94 
121. Narrating, her symptoms agg. B 
Meanings:Narrating (v): giving account of her: her
problems 
Interpretation :- Her symptoms agg. while giving an
account of them. 
Versions:- "It will be found that
certain patients remain quiet and calm till you do not pay any attention 
to them. But sooner you start listening to them they will become excited as if
while narrating, their  symptoms are aggravating.''  
122. Playful A 
Meanings :- playful (adj): disposed to engage oneself in
some amusing exercise. 
Versions :- "these days I am in a mood
to indulge in talking to anyone very freely. But I am finding  none. My
husband has no time for all these things. I am badly after finding some society." 
123. Praying A 
Meanings :- praying (v): requesting for favour. 
Interpretation :- requesting those in authority for a
favour. 
Versions :- "Do you ask everyone to
favour you?", a patient was asked. "The question does not
arise.  What is the use of asking does who do not know the job. You are a
doctor. You can properly  understand my problem. I request only you to rid
me of this nasty disease earlier as possible because I  am much in
trouble." 
124.
Quarrelsome, anger without C 
Meanings :- quarrelsome (adj): argumentive,
one who disputes. 
Interpretation :- inclined to argue or to disagree
without anger or any sort of agitation. 
Versions :- without showing any type of
agitation at her face a patient said, "today I have come to qurrel with
you. "Why?." "Because you are not paying proper attention to my
case." "How do you know?"  "Since, I observe that
others are getting well where as I am not." 
"So you have come to quarrel with me." No, no,
I am simply joking but what I actually want to say is 
that please see why I am not improving? 
125. Rest, can not, when things are not in proper place.
A 
Meanings :- rest. (n): Relief or freedom from troubles or
exertion. 
 Proper (adj) place (n): A space meant for a
particular purpose. 
 When (adj): point of time or period. 
Interpretation :- cannot be at peace as long
as things are brought back to the order required. This rubric  may be
converted into these words. "Things do not appear in order" but is
not necessary that peace of mind is lost in every case. In the broader context
the disorder may be of any type concerning anything  in life or society
(even one's own action or of others) etc. etc. 
Versions :- "I feel that the medicine
you gave was not correct because it has not given the desired 
results." 
126. Repulsive, mood A 
Meanings :- repulsive (adj): that drives off.
Not accepting to be pushed back from the present position.  Mood (n):
disposition of mind. 
Interpretation :- wants to hold his foot
fast, does not allow himself to be pushed back. 
Versions :- "I want to remain perfectly
alright. Why one should be sick?" replied when he was adviced  that
he should not bother for minor ailments". 
127. Sadness, insult, as if from B 
Meanings :- sadness (n): state of unhappiness. 
 Insult (v): affront, an offense on one's dignity or
self respect. 
Interpretation :- state of unhappiness with the feeling
as if self respect or dignity has been offended. 
Versions :- "I am unhappy because today
my son did not wish me properly. I feel I have been insulted.  Although I
know there was nothing wrong so far his intention was concerned, yet I am not
able to  reconcile with the fact and feel sad." 
128. Sadness, quiet B 
Meanings :- quiet (adj): state of unhappiness
without making any noise or show of it. Sadness  demonstrated by assuming
quietness by way of withdrawl from activity. 
Versions :- when sad, I withdraw from almost
every activity and do not respond calls for active  participation in
anything with the normal enthusiam. 
129. Sadness, slight, an undeserved from
C 
Meanings :- slight (n): having been treated with
indifference pointedly and contemptuousely.
 undeserved (adj): unjustified. 
Interpretation :- state of unhappiness
because of contemptuous discourtesy received for no fault on  one's part
or state of unhappiness because of an unjustified insult. 
Versions :- "what actually makes me sad
is that I am punished without any fault on my part." For  example as
you have rebuked me of my being irregular in getting treatment from you but I
am unhappy  with you as you have not tried to know the reason for
it." 
130.
Recognises, everything but cannot move AA 
Meanings:- Recognises (v): Identifies as
something as previously known or from knowledge of  appearance or existing
truth. 
Interpretation:-This rubric may be changed to
'Recognises the reality and accepts it.' Identifies the truth  which
cannot be changed and reconciles with it without complaint. 
Versions:- In very plain words & without
emotions she tells that she knows that her disease is not  curable then
why should she worry about it? Adds further, "My job is to make efforts
and not think  beyond that." 
131. Sensitive, mental, impressions
to  
Meanings:- Sensitive (adj): That which is affected
badly.  
 Mental (adj): concerning mind. 
 Impressions(n)to: Images left or stamped by one
object on another. 
Interpretation:- One whose intellect ,
feelings or conscience is badly affected by certain ideas, abjects or 
remembrances,etc. 
Versions:- " Actually I tell my people not to talk
to me about any bad news. It is not to say only of  people telling me
anything . Ideas will come up even in my own mind also to capture it all of a
sudden and start tormenting me un-necessarily." 
"
For example, my son has a motor-cycle. If he is out , the thought; of his
meeting with an accident will  capture my mind. I am filled with all types
of anxieties about him and my heart starts sinking." 
132. Sensitive, external, impressions to all
C 
Meanings:- External (adj) : Something which
has no concern with the ideas, remembrances or objects  originating from
one's mind but coming from outside it. 
Interpretation:- Badly affected (in mind)
when comes into contact with the objects, events or  happenings (outside)
in one's surroundings. 
Versions:- " Visions of external objects remain
inpressed on my mind for several days. If I see a deadbody. Its picture
persists before my eyes for several days. If I hear some sensational song its
sound will  remain singing in my ear for many days . If I hear a bad news,
it will remain fresh in my mind for days  together." "My son is
accepting everything whatever is given to him from outside. If he sees
someone  doing anything , he will say he will also do the same thing.If he
will see anyone eating anything he will  say he will eat the same thing in
the same manner etc. etc." 
133.
Sensitive, moral, impressions to B  
Meanings :- Moral (adj) : Concerned with
right conduct and its principles. 
Interpretation:- Feels badly when principles concerning
right conduct are not adhered to. 
Versions:- "When I find that at her old
age, my mother is to nurse me , my wife and little children have  to earn
to support me, I feel ashamed and think of commiting suicide. In my view a
person like me has  no moral standing to live." 
134. Shrieking , aid for A 
Meaning:- Shrieking(v): Uttering a sharp cry. 
 aid(v): Subsidy; not full help just a
part of it.It is that proportion of assistance which one needs to  fulfill
the deficiency beingexperienced in one's own efforts. 
Interpretation:- Asking for a helping hand in
an unpleasant tone. 
Versions:- (1) " I have to look-after
all the house-hold all alone. No body tries to help me. Even in  sickness
none bothers to see that I need assistance." 
(2) " I was just passing through this
way and thought of meeting you. There is not much problem with  me. I can
do without medicine. But if I get a dose of it I think it will
better." 
135. Stupefaction. knows not where he is C 
Meanings :- Stupefaction (n) : State of
numbness of senses of perception as if smoke screened. Knows not: does not
perceive or understand clearly and with certainty. 
Interpretation:- Being in a state of cloudy
or smoke screened sense of perception is not able to  understand at what
place he is. 
Versions:- (1)" During pain I remain
lying where, I am. Quite unaware of my surroundings. And come  to my
senses; only after the pain is a bit relieved" 
(2) " If you ask me about my present
condition I can say I am not clear as to where I stand. It is better  that
you repeat the medicine." 
(3)
"sometimes I becomes so dull that I have to ask someone to tell me as to
where I am." 
136.
Superstitious B
Meanings:- superstitious (adj): one having a belief in an
idea with no logical background. Blind faith. 
Versions :- "My friend was cured by you.
It came to my mind that I should also undergo your  treatment. If you
could cured him you will definitely be able to cure me. With this faith in mind
I have  come to you for treatment." 
137. Talk, desires to someone C 
Meanings :- talk (v): to speak familiarly. 
 Desires (v): craves to. 
 Someone (pron ): some person. 
Interpretation :- to speak familiarly with someone. 
Versions :- "I feel like talking out to
someone, those of my ideas which seem to be burdening mind  mind.
Generally they are about my sickness, with the hope that I might get some good
advice in that  connection." "Sometimes I talk about something
other than my sickness just to forget it. At occasions I  find that just
talking it entertains me which ameliorates my ailment." 
138. Thoughts, two trains of thoughts
C  
Meanings :- thoughts (n): ideas or notions produced one's
thinking. 
 Trains (n): lines 
Interpretation :- two lines of thinking or
reasoning which run parallel to one another and suggesting two  lines of
action as if both are correct and it is difficult to choose one out of the
two. 
Versions :- it is a great problem with me,
"I am in a fix. Out of the two alternative which one was the  best. I
got operated and to be free from the trouble once for all now I think that if
the organ could be  saved and healed in a natural way that too was good
and worth consideration." 
139. Threatening B 
Meanings :- threatening (n): indicating an
intention to inflict punishment or an evil upon the other. This is done either
to prevent a person from doing wrong or compel him to toe a particular
line. 
Versions :- "be attentive while
prescribing for me, if I feel no relief, I shall not come to you
again."  "Are you threatening?" 
 "Definitely,
because I have noticed that you are not paying proper attention to my
case." 140. Timidity, alternating with assurance c 
Meanings: -- timidity (n): want of
courage. 
 Alternating (v) with: interchanging repeatedly and
regularly with one another.  Assurance (n): A positive declaration
intended to give confidence. 
Interpretation: -two states of mind, one discouraging and
the other encouraging remain interchanging 
repeatedly and regularly with one another. 
Versions: -- "Since the moment cancer
was declared I have become a broken person. For a moment I succeed in assuring
myself that it is not necessary that every cancer patient is incurable 
since I am under the treatment of a reputed doctor in you. I tell myself that
there is a greater possibility  of my getting cured and therefore there is
no need to worry. But this assurance remains for a short 
time." 
141.Torments, everyone with his complaints c 
Meanings :- torments (n): worries and annoys
excessively. 
 Complaints (n): expressions of pain or troubles or
the like in order to get redressal of them.  Excessively (n): causing
worry and annoyance to everyone, with the expressions of pains  and
troubles repeatedly. 
Versions :- (1) "My mind is always
occupied with one of the other complaint. You with appreciate that one who is
in trouble will definitely be talking to everyone about his sufferings in the
hope that  someone may suggest a good solution. But my family people think
that I am in the habit of bothering  everyone." 
(2) "People will go on telling me to
change the topic and talk about something else but I will not listen  to
them. As a result they leave me." 
142. Travel, desire to B 
Meanings :- travel (v): to go from one place
to another or from place to place by any means of transport  with a fixed
destination and purpose in mind. 
Interpretation :- inclined to go from place
to place, as it pleases one's mind. 
Versions :- "I am fond of visiting
places of interest like hill stations and places with natural 
surroundings and sceneries." 
143. Unconsciousness, interrupted by
screaming A 
Meanings :- unconsciousness (n): state of
complete loss of the power of perception and awareness of  the
surroundings. Is not able to respond to sensory stimulations. 
Interrupted (adj): broken in between by
trying with a shrill sound. 
Interpretation :- the state of
unconsciousness is broken for some time or moments in between by 
shrieking (as a sign of awareness of pains or dangers, etc.) 
Versions :- (1) "A person remains
forgetful in a state of unawareness that an important work is  suffering
which requires his attention without delay and this state is broken in between
with a  remainder of ruin."
 (2) "The patient remains quiet for
most of the time but produces sounds of distress 
occasionally." 
144. Wander, desire to c 
Meanings :- wander (v): To go from place to
place without any object and fixed destination.  Desires (v): Wishes
to. 
Interpretation :- inclined to go from place
to place without any purpose and without knowing the  destination, as it
pleases one's mind. 
Versions :- "Something impels me to go
out somewhere. When I start and go out a house, I stop and  ponder where
and in which direction to go. In this way after thinking for a longtime I move
on in the direction facing me and stop again after it few steps. Like this I
repeat the same exercise many times  and come back home." 
145. Weeping, refused anything, when A 
Meanings :- weeping (n): shedding tears to
express grief, sorrow or any overpowering emotion.  Refused (v): A request
rejected. 
Interpretation :- weeps when he feels his
request for anything is rejected. 
Versions :- "when I come here I do
everything to impress upon you that I require your full attention to  get
rid of my disease. You also do not spare any effort or your part to prescribe a
correct medicine and  even after that if I do not get relief I feel as if
my request has been turned down by an unknown force  which is followed by
tears from my eyes." 
146. Weeping, touched when A 
Meanings :- touched (adj): coming into contact with the
fingers or hands or any part of someone's body. 
Interpretation :- while coming into contact
physically with finger, hand or any part of the another's body  or
mentally in the thought or word heard move the mind and stir it to react in the
form of shedding  tears. 
Versions :- "feels that she never hurts
her men, why then all those sufferings for her. With tears in her  eyes
she asks the ALL MIGHTY." 
147. Well, says, he is, when very sick
B 
Meanings :- Well (adj): In a satisfactory position. 
 Says (v): States as an opinion. 
 Very (adj): in a high degree. 
Interpretation :- there seems to be no
communication between the body and mind. While seriously sick  feels is in
satisfactory state of health.
Versions :- (1) If you ask you patient, how he is, he
will reply that he is well. 
"Do you know that you have fever." 
"Yes." 
"Still you feel you are well." 
"Yes." 
(2) "please wait and do not change the
medicine. I feel I am getting some relief. After sometime he  gets the
opposite feeling and says perhaps he was wrong." 
148. Will, contradiction of C 
Meanings :- will (n): The power of control
the mind has over its own actions or the power of choosing  one's
options. 
Contradiction (n) of: Assertion of the opposite. 
Interpretation :- Assertion of the opposite
between the options to the exercised. Rejecting its own  decisions and
sticking to none. 
Versions :- "I take a decision now and
rejected it the next moment. Say for example about medicine. I  decide
that I should go in for allopathic treatment that cures quickly and soon after
sometime it will come to my mind that homoeopathy will be better as it gives a
permanent.This keeps me undercided." 
149. Will, muscles refuse to obey the will
when attention is turned away. AA 
Interpretation :- This rubric may be changed
in this fashion. 'WILL, Muscles obey the will so long as the will is strong.'
This rubric indicates the relationship between the mind and the functions of
the body.  All depends upon the firmness of mind. If the mind it becomes
weak and accepts excuses the body has  to offer for its malfunctioning
then body assumes control over the mind and vice versa. 
Versions :- This rubric may be changed as
Muscles obey the will so long as the will is strong. (1) "I am carrying on
just on the strength of my will, otherwise I do not think that anyone in my
position  could pull on." 
(2) "I try my best to keep control over
myself. The pain disturbs me too much and ultimately a stage is  reached
when I am unable to hold myself and try to cling to someone for medicine or
whatever he made  do." 
(3) the child has a very strong will. He will
try to bear pain as long as possible and will not disturb us.  But when
the pain goes out of his control he tries to cling to anyone who is near. (4)
"when the pain becomes unbearable and my will gives way I start talking to
someone." (5) "I try to bear the pain as long as possible. When I
find that I am not able to keep control over  myself I have to take the
allopathic medicine against my wishes." 
150. Will, two, feels, as if he had two wills
C 
Meanings :- feels (v): Knows by the sense of touch. 
Interpretation :- the situation seems to be
providing two parallel options having merits of their own  keeping the
mind wavering to come to a final one. Double minded. 
Versions :- "My mind is in two wills. Since I have
already started your treatment and I feel some relief, 
I wish I should continue the treatment. On
the other hand, in this season all ways I go to Haridwar and  spend two or
three months there in good humor. Now this is an attraction in itself, because
in that  atmosphere most of my ailments disappear." 
Now I have come to you for advice as to which course I
should take. 
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